I opened my notes app today to jot something down and found a sentence I wrote months ago: “I just want things to feel calmer.” No context, no explanation, just that line sitting there like a little time capsule. It made me laugh, because I remember thinking I was being dramatic. Now I’m looking at it like, honestly, fair.
Everywhere right now has that year-end energy. People are wrapping things up, naming what they learned, announcing what they’re leaving behind. I can feel my mind trying to keep up, like I’m supposed to hand in my own summary on schedule. That’s the pattern for me: when the calendar is turning, I start comparing my inside life to everyone else’s finished sentences.
My brain also does this thing where it tries to rush the meaning. It wants a clean takeaway. It tries to decide what everything meant before I’ve even fully felt it. One awkward month becomes the headline. One good week becomes the exception. I start grading myself in my head, even if no one asked for a report.
Maybe unpopular, but I’m not into the year-end report card vibe. I don’t want to end the year like a judge. I want to end it like a person who actually lived it. Some parts were hard and still worth it. Some parts were fine and still changed me. I don’t need the year to be perfect to be glad I made it through.
So my small hope for next year is steadiness. Trusting my pace, even when someone else sounds more confident. Not letting one off day rewrite the whole story. Making choices that feel calm enough to repeat.
And if you’re reading this, I’m sending you the same wish. A year that feels steady enough to hold you, even when you’re still figuring things out. Happy New Year, genuinely. I’m really glad you’re here.
Until tomorrow,
Vayresa
Exhale slowly and let your shoulders drop. Say to yourself, “I’m allowed to enter this year gently, and I’m choosing steadiness.”
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